Sunday, October 26, 2008

What scares me is not the idea of being alone for the rest of my life.

I do not fear love, nor do I fear pain...I can live with being unoriginal..I’m not scared of the dark or of spiders...And I would sooner embrace change than hide from it.I am not afraid of death, and I am not afraid of what does or does not happen after death.

I have as many problems as an ordinary teenager/girl/child.

But my problems are not ordinary

My secret is that I’m scared I’ll spend my life as someone who makes no difference.

At 18 I want to make an impact.- I’m scared that not only will no one know who I am, but I will fail to ever find out who I am myself.

At 18 I understand I am young. I understand maybe it doesn't make sense for a reason, maybe someday it will, maybe it was never intended too.-

I'm scared that I don't have it in myself to be great.

At 18 I want to be great.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Wow, This is exactly the way i feel. But i've never heard anyone else articulate it. I'm 31 & have felt this same way since before I was your age.

These are very powerful recognitions, thank you SO much for sharing & saying Exactly what I was feeling!

I have 2 situations in my life right now that require me to actually BE the person that is GREAT. But what if I can't do it?
There were 2 women that ran back from the grave to tell the others that Jesus had risen from the dead. I want to be the kind of woman that would RUN back & PROCALIM the TRUTH.

"My secret is that I’m scared I’ll spend my life as someone who makes no difference.

...fail to ever find out who I am myself.

I'm scared that I don't have it in myself to be great."
Thanks, I completely understand.

Anonymous said...

It's comforting to know someone feels the same.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not naive enough to believe I'm the only person to ever feel this way, and I more than certainly will not be the last... But none the less.
You're so so welcome..

But Thank You.
You are already great, and will always have it in you to continue being so.

I only hope I do too.

Anonymous said...

You've already made an impact on at least one person.
Luck and love