Sunday, August 15, 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Thursday, May 20, 2010
I fear that I will never understand how much you love me truelt and I won't be able to live up to your expectations. You have saved me from myself and all I can do is love you. I'm scared to death that one day I will hurt you and either of us will go back to ways and get hurt more. I fear that if for any reason this doesn't work out, that you have lost your family for nothing.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
I used to think my biggest fear was that I'd never fall in love like I know I'm meant to.
I still fear that.
But I know that my darkest fear is that I'm too messed up to every find love. That I'll stop myself from letting it happen if the opportunity ever does arise.
My biggest fear is that I'll be stuck in this dark cavern of loneliness forever.
I still fear that.
But I know that my darkest fear is that I'm too messed up to every find love. That I'll stop myself from letting it happen if the opportunity ever does arise.
My biggest fear is that I'll be stuck in this dark cavern of loneliness forever.
I'm terrified of falling back into a dark trap.
I fear this feeling, that I can sense is pulling me down, farther and farther from myself, at a moment when I most need to be focussed, alive, down-to-earth.
I need myself so I can pass these exams that I'm so desperately afraid of failing.
And my family needs me.
I fear the loss of everything I love and want so much, and I fear I will have to face that fear, soon.
I fear this feeling, that I can sense is pulling me down, farther and farther from myself, at a moment when I most need to be focussed, alive, down-to-earth.
I need myself so I can pass these exams that I'm so desperately afraid of failing.
And my family needs me.
I fear the loss of everything I love and want so much, and I fear I will have to face that fear, soon.
i fear that my habit of over thinking things, will one day destroy all happiness i have.
i fear not being 'great' like everyone expects, like i expect. i want to be remembered.
i fear crossing the road.
i fear one day you wont want me anymore.
i fear ill keep making excuses for everyone, allowing myself to be constantly mistreated, because of their 'valid reasons'
F/16
i fear not being 'great' like everyone expects, like i expect. i want to be remembered.
i fear crossing the road.
i fear one day you wont want me anymore.
i fear ill keep making excuses for everyone, allowing myself to be constantly mistreated, because of their 'valid reasons'
F/16
Monday, March 22, 2010
Friday, February 12, 2010
The thing I fear most is losing my memories and my mind. I know that something is different. Words, names, places, and people. Everything is harder to find, it's slowly slipping away. I hope it's just a normal part of aging, but either way, it still scares the heck out of me. Words, discussions, and stories, is who I am. Without my own "history," in my own mind, I'll have nothing.
I'm frantic about getting it all down in writing and hope I don't run out of time. I feel that I've forgotten a lot of my "life" stories already, but I don't know what they were.
I'm frantic about getting it all down in writing and hope I don't run out of time. I feel that I've forgotten a lot of my "life" stories already, but I don't know what they were.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Monday, February 1, 2010
The only thing I fear is... fear.
I know what it's like to have a panic attack. And I never want to have one again. There was a time when I was afraid of things... when the anxiety would build without me even realizing it and it overwhelmed me, and sometimes a panic attack would set it. Now? Now I'm so afraid of having a panic attack that the fear of that itself leads to a panic attack all on its own. Whenever I get into a situation that holds memories of past anxiety, the worry of an oncoming attack takes hold.
I'm not afraid of the things I'm afraid of anymore... I'm not afraid of things. I don't need them. I'm afraid of the fear itself... of my mind hazing, my hands shaking, my heart palpitating as though I'm having a heart attack, of my guts twisting until I feel as though I might throw up... of the uncontrollable feeling of sheer dread taking over my body - without cause and without cure.
I know what it's like to have a panic attack. And I never want to have one again. There was a time when I was afraid of things... when the anxiety would build without me even realizing it and it overwhelmed me, and sometimes a panic attack would set it. Now? Now I'm so afraid of having a panic attack that the fear of that itself leads to a panic attack all on its own. Whenever I get into a situation that holds memories of past anxiety, the worry of an oncoming attack takes hold.
I'm not afraid of the things I'm afraid of anymore... I'm not afraid of things. I don't need them. I'm afraid of the fear itself... of my mind hazing, my hands shaking, my heart palpitating as though I'm having a heart attack, of my guts twisting until I feel as though I might throw up... of the uncontrollable feeling of sheer dread taking over my body - without cause and without cure.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
i fear that i'll make the same mistakes that they did. i fear that i'll never be able to live with a healthy relationship, because the only "healthy" relationship in which i know is the abusive one led by my parents. I'm afraid that because of this, I'll never be able to trust anyone.
I fear that I'll never be able to look him, or anyone, in the eyes and actually mean it when i say "i'll miss you, or i love you, or i need you." I'm afraid i'll always have to look away or not be able to say it, because i won't mean it.
I'm afraid i'm heading down the same path that they were on, and that I won't be able to forge ahead on the better path, the one i so helplessly need to tread my tracks on. I fear that i am destined to be just like them... and i fear that i'll hate myself because of that.
I fear that I'll never be able to look him, or anyone, in the eyes and actually mean it when i say "i'll miss you, or i love you, or i need you." I'm afraid i'll always have to look away or not be able to say it, because i won't mean it.
I'm afraid i'm heading down the same path that they were on, and that I won't be able to forge ahead on the better path, the one i so helplessly need to tread my tracks on. I fear that i am destined to be just like them... and i fear that i'll hate myself because of that.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
i fear that i'll make the same mistakes that they did. i fear that i'll never be able to live with a healthy relationship, because the only "healthy" relationship in which i know is the abusive one led by my parents. I'm afraid that because of this, I'll never be able to trust anyone.
I fear that I'll never be able to look him, or anyone, in the eyes and actually mean it when i say "i'll miss you, or i love you, or i need you." I'm afraid i'll always have to look away or not be able to say it, because i won't mean it.
I'm afraid i'm heading down the same path that they were on, and that I won't be able to forge ahead on the better path, the one i so helplessly need to tread my tracks on. I fear that i am destined to be just like them... and i fear that i'll hate myself because of that.
I fear that I'll never be able to look him, or anyone, in the eyes and actually mean it when i say "i'll miss you, or i love you, or i need you." I'm afraid i'll always have to look away or not be able to say it, because i won't mean it.
I'm afraid i'm heading down the same path that they were on, and that I won't be able to forge ahead on the better path, the one i so helplessly need to tread my tracks on. I fear that i am destined to be just like them... and i fear that i'll hate myself because of that.
Monday, December 21, 2009
I fear that I will never ever get over the rape, and the abusive relationship.. and that I will never allow another male to get close to me ever again. I fear that even though I have finally found a man who I can trust, I don't know if I'll ever be comfortable being physical with him. Everytime I even think about it old memories pop into my head and bring me down. I love him, but I fear that I am going to hurt him by physically pushing him away from me.. but I don't know how much I can take.. I really do love him and I hope he realizes it's nothing to do with him and he's done nothing but make my situation easier
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
i fear finding out that he actually IS dead, something that i (and my heart) refuse to believe. i think about it almost every day. i do not know what i'm gonna do if he is.
cry, go into depression, i honestly dont know. part of me actually almost believes it, but the rest of me refuses to acknowledge it. i just refuse. he cant be dead. he CANT. i will only believe it under one circumstance. and i have no idea whatsoever how i'm to go about finding out about it. so i guess my poor heart must suffer through this until i know for sure, not that i entirely want to know in the first place..
:(
f/17
cry, go into depression, i honestly dont know. part of me actually almost believes it, but the rest of me refuses to acknowledge it. i just refuse. he cant be dead. he CANT. i will only believe it under one circumstance. and i have no idea whatsoever how i'm to go about finding out about it. so i guess my poor heart must suffer through this until i know for sure, not that i entirely want to know in the first place..
:(
f/17
I fear getting over this and forgetting about my baby. I miss him so much but everyday that passes makes it a little easier. It's my fault though I deserve to live in the grief that I have been in since the abortion. I fear that when I do finally get over this you'll completely leave me. Right now atleast were still friends, but once I'm okay your going to be gone leaving me with nothing.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
I'm so afraid of getting rejected that I've rarely ever been able to tell the girls who I truly care about that I like them. My ideal relationship is to be with someone who I am best friends with. The problem is that once I develop a strong friendship I give up on turning it into a relationship because I fear the rejection from someone that I am close to. This has caused me to have only superficial relationships that go nowhere and I'm scared that I will be alone forever because I will never have the guts to tell someone that I like them
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
My oldest son lives with his dad. He chose to go live with his dad and I could have spent $100,000 to fight it and maybe won the court battle and caused my son unknown emotional damage to resent the hell out of me, or I could let him live with his dad and miss him everyday of my life. I chose to let him live with his dad. And missing him leaves a hole in me that most people will never understand. My new husband and I tried for 10 years to have a child - and we did!!! We have an absolutely beautiful almost 3 year old little boy who is the light of my life. He doesn't replace his big brother, but he brings me joy every single day. My fear? My gut-wrenching, deepest, darkest, most horrific fear? That my oldest son going to live with his dad was the universe's way of telling me I wasn't meant to be a mom and now I've tempted fate and something horrible is going to happen to my little boy and I'm going to lose him too. I can't sleep at night sometimes because I am so scared.
I fear myself more than anything.
To be at a point where I am more myself than ever before, to be at a point where I am accepting my sexuality, my image, my thoughts and my eccentric behaviour, and yet to not fully trust myself terrifies me.
I fear myself, because I am not sure I can trust myself with my life.
I fear that I will not be able to do what I want to, and that I will end up harming myself because I can't deal with the failure.
I fear myself because it nearly always takes a conscious effort for me not to press a sharp object into my skin when I am picking it up. I don't fear sharps. I fear my hands when they hold them.
To be at a point where I am more myself than ever before, to be at a point where I am accepting my sexuality, my image, my thoughts and my eccentric behaviour, and yet to not fully trust myself terrifies me.
I fear myself, because I am not sure I can trust myself with my life.
I fear that I will not be able to do what I want to, and that I will end up harming myself because I can't deal with the failure.
I fear myself because it nearly always takes a conscious effort for me not to press a sharp object into my skin when I am picking it up. I don't fear sharps. I fear my hands when they hold them.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
I fear the sickness coming on...I'm about to be dopesick AGAIN and I have this new job I HAVE to go to and no hope of relief for another TWO WEEKS when I can get my medication refilled. I know how badly I am going to feel, I've been sick this way a thousand times. I keep doing it to myself and fear I will never be able to stop. I'm not even out of meds yet- I've got 20 pills left, but I am locked into sharing them with *him* and me, I take 20 a day all by myself, so 20 pills left is nothing. I am so afraid of what I know is to come, there's no way out of it, either. It's like steaming down hill and seeing the cliff at the bottom but being unable to stop...
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Monday, August 31, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Friday, July 31, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
I fear not living my life to the fullest. To see my time ticking away and doing nothing about it. I fear growing old, and not being able to do all the things i want to do. I fear that what all my friends and family called "the time of my life" will be just as mediocure as everything else, because i'm too scared to take chances.18F
I fear I will scare you off. I fear you just say those words because you know I want to hear them and you know I don't want to lose you again.I fear not being able to be enough for you, you deserve the best and I really hope thats what I do for you. I fear my love for you will lead you somewhere else. I fear not being beautiful enough - inside and out. I fear you will find someone who makes you smile more, laugh more, treats you better, and isnt so boring.I fear you getting away, me having nothing left after this because all I have is put into you. It sounds stupid but thinking about it I dont know what would happen if I lost you, as cliche as this sounds I really dont know.
my biggest fear is and always has been turning into you.
i hate what you've done, you will never knowthe damage you caused.
what 3 year old needs to see her daddy and sister trying to kill themselves?
a second time?
for the seventh time?
i want to happy but all i can do id hurt myself.
i fear i'll be come you.
i hate what you've done, you will never knowthe damage you caused.
what 3 year old needs to see her daddy and sister trying to kill themselves?
a second time?
for the seventh time?
i want to happy but all i can do id hurt myself.
i fear i'll be come you.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
i fear that our friendship will never be the same again that the moments and memories we have shared over the past years are the end. i fear that no matter how hard we both try and promise to try and make our frienship work we will fail.
i fear that our drunken nights out will only be full of heated fights and our days bickering with each other.
i fear we will fake the frienship from the past just to pretend to each other it is still the same.
i fear that when we hear that song with or without you live tears will run down knowing that our closeness will be gone forever.
i fear that our drunken nights out will only be full of heated fights and our days bickering with each other.
i fear we will fake the frienship from the past just to pretend to each other it is still the same.
i fear that when we hear that song with or without you live tears will run down knowing that our closeness will be gone forever.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
I'm terribly afraid of death...mine or anyone close to me. I actually think it has become a phobia.Yet...I think I might have breast cancer but I'm terrified to go to the doctor. I haven't told anyone because I know they would make me face my fear of death and I don't think I can handle it.
I'm terrified.
Female, 23
I'm terrified.
Female, 23
Monday, January 5, 2009
Friday, January 2, 2009
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
I'm a 22 year old female and my vision is failing me. I fear losing my vision before I get married to the love of my life, to see the happiness on his face when I get to wear that white dress my mother made me, before I get to see the ring he worked so hard to buy for me, before I get to see his face when we conceive our first child, and before I get to meet my children...
Saturday, December 27, 2008
I fear that I will not have the nerve to make an a..I fear that I will not have the nerve to make an appointment with the school guidance counsellor after the Christmas holidays. I fear that I will be too scared to tell the guidance counsellor all the many good reasons that I think I have OCD. I fear that they won't believe me. I fear that they will. I fear that I do have OCD. I fear that I don't have OCD and am just being an idiot. |
I'm scared of losing control. I'm scared that I'll pick up those scissors and do what I've been trying to hard to fight. It's all because of you, you've made me like this: scared, lonely, deperate - for some kind of release; some kind of heaven from this hell.
You've made me afraid of my myself and I'll never forgive you but...you know what makes this all so hard?
That I still love you, always have and always will.
<3
You've made me afraid of my myself and I'll never forgive you but...you know what makes this all so hard?
That I still love you, always have and always will.
<3
Saturday, December 20, 2008
I fear failure. I fear that I am not clever enough to be studying for my degree in Literature. I fear that my hardwork is not hard enough. I fear that I shall have to make my part time job into a full time job. I fear the career I want will not live up to my expectations. I fear that I shall spend so much time trying to be successful in the career that I shall forget to have a family and when I remember it will be too late. I'm scared that I will never find anyone who I can truly love. I'm scared because the one thing I want more than anything else is a family, but I don't think I will ever find my soul mate.I fear that I shall have to focus so much on my career in order to be a success at something, rather than being seen as a failure.I fear that in the process of aspiring to better myself and make a difference through teaching, I will fail to have the life I really want.
Female/19
Female/19
My biggest fear is that I will somehow lose him. Not that he will leave me, or that I will leave him, but more that there will be some freak accident or medical condition or something that will take him from me.
I've loved him my whole life. He's my soul mate.
There is nothing about me that he doesn't know, and the same for him.
My life would be over if his ever was.
I've loved him my whole life. He's my soul mate.
There is nothing about me that he doesn't know, and the same for him.
My life would be over if his ever was.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
I'm afraid of needles. I can't get blood drawn and I refuse to donate. Shots are alright, piercings and tattoos are alright, but needles for taking blood... I can't even think of them without crunching together into a ball in fear. It goes back to when I was little and they thought I had ovarian cancer. They pricked me with needles constantly, doing blood tests and all of that. It got so bad that nurses had to hold me down because I was so sick of it. The last time I let them take my blood was when I was 10, and I had to bite my lip to stop myself from crying. I never had the cancer they thought I did, but I still refuse to take blood tests to this day. It's extremely foolish on my part, but I can't conquer that fear.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Friday, November 14, 2008
i'm afraid that no one will remember me because i've done nothing worth remembering. the idea of growing up to be like my parents, just like millions of other people, scares me more than anything. i don't always want to be a nobody. i'll die, and so will my friends and family, and the world will continue and no one will know who i was and it will have made no difference if i was alive or not. i'm afraid that as i lay dying and look back on my life i will see no importance in any of my actions, only regrets.
I am afraid of losing you to drugs. I am afraid that I will either stay with you and you will continue your pattern throughout your life, and that I will never have the guts to leave you.
I am also afraid of leaving you because I love you so much, and I know that just the thought of losing you makes me want to cringe.
I am afraid that I will never find anyone who treats me the way that you do, and that I will be alone forever.
I am afraid that if I say "goodbye", that you will not leave it the way it is.
I am afraid that you won't come after me.
I am afraid that you will come after me.
I am afraid that you will never change.
I am also afraid of leaving you because I love you so much, and I know that just the thought of losing you makes me want to cringe.
I am afraid that I will never find anyone who treats me the way that you do, and that I will be alone forever.
I am afraid that if I say "goodbye", that you will not leave it the way it is.
I am afraid that you won't come after me.
I am afraid that you will come after me.
I am afraid that you will never change.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
I used to be afraid of not having control.
I couldnt let my family leave with out repeating 'I love you, becareful' a million times.
I prayed all day for the safety & happiness of my family & friends.
But now I finally feel free of these anxieties.
I know that God has a plan, & I should fear nothing. He is in control over everything & I have given all my burdens to him.
I AM FINALLY FREE OF CONSTANT FEAR!
I couldnt let my family leave with out repeating 'I love you, becareful' a million times.
I prayed all day for the safety & happiness of my family & friends.
But now I finally feel free of these anxieties.
I know that God has a plan, & I should fear nothing. He is in control over everything & I have given all my burdens to him.
I AM FINALLY FREE OF CONSTANT FEAR!
My biggest fear is indifference
I'm scared because it seems to me that time stopped right at the summer of my seventeenth year. I just loved him, even if it wasn't meant to last more than a month because of distance. Then my heart ached and I felt pain. But ever since that day, and it's been one year and a half, my heart never raced again, I could never let any guy in the same way I did with him. I tried to kick the hands of the clock forwards but every time, I am reminded how it ended up last time.
I am afraid I will never fall in love again.
I'm scared because it seems to me that time stopped right at the summer of my seventeenth year. I just loved him, even if it wasn't meant to last more than a month because of distance. Then my heart ached and I felt pain. But ever since that day, and it's been one year and a half, my heart never raced again, I could never let any guy in the same way I did with him. I tried to kick the hands of the clock forwards but every time, I am reminded how it ended up last time.
I am afraid I will never fall in love again.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
im 16 years young.
and i am not afraid of death but afraid of being alone.
but thats what everyone fears in the end.
they wish they could be loved and love someone.
but in the end what is love really.
but just a word and a feeling you think it is.
i havnt loved yet so i cant say or judge.
i still fear of being alone
-steven
and i am not afraid of death but afraid of being alone.
but thats what everyone fears in the end.
they wish they could be loved and love someone.
but in the end what is love really.
but just a word and a feeling you think it is.
i havnt loved yet so i cant say or judge.
i still fear of being alone
-steven
Sunday, October 26, 2008
What scares me is not the idea of being alone for the rest of my life.
I do not fear love, nor do I fear pain...I can live with being unoriginal..I’m not scared of the dark or of spiders...And I would sooner embrace change than hide from it.I am not afraid of death, and I am not afraid of what does or does not happen after death.
I have as many problems as an ordinary teenager/girl/child.
But my problems are not ordinary
My secret is that I’m scared I’ll spend my life as someone who makes no difference.
At 18 I want to make an impact.- I’m scared that not only will no one know who I am, but I will fail to ever find out who I am myself.
At 18 I understand I am young. I understand maybe it doesn't make sense for a reason, maybe someday it will, maybe it was never intended too.-
I'm scared that I don't have it in myself to be great.
At 18 I want to be great.
I do not fear love, nor do I fear pain...I can live with being unoriginal..I’m not scared of the dark or of spiders...And I would sooner embrace change than hide from it.I am not afraid of death, and I am not afraid of what does or does not happen after death.
I have as many problems as an ordinary teenager/girl/child.
But my problems are not ordinary
My secret is that I’m scared I’ll spend my life as someone who makes no difference.
At 18 I want to make an impact.- I’m scared that not only will no one know who I am, but I will fail to ever find out who I am myself.
At 18 I understand I am young. I understand maybe it doesn't make sense for a reason, maybe someday it will, maybe it was never intended too.-
I'm scared that I don't have it in myself to be great.
At 18 I want to be great.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
Sunday, October 5, 2008
I fear losing my best friend in the entire world. She completes me- and knows how to speak right to my heart. She listens, truly listens, and she is the most genuine individual I know. I love her with every bone in my body- and would be devastated if anything ever were to happen to her or our friendship.
I love you to the moon and back.
Please don't ever leave me.
Female (19)
I love you to the moon and back.
Please don't ever leave me.
Female (19)
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
I fear losing the people that are most important to me whether it be that they die or they just ignore me or something.
I fear that I aim too high and that if I don't achieve what i aim, I'll crash lower than i would ever have thought that i could have gone.
i fear other people dying more than my own death because i fear the pain that will cause me. But I also fear that if I die too early, i will never get the chance to love and be loved and achieve my dreams.
But, I can't be too scared of death I guess, because I would rather sacrifice my life for saving someone (even if I didn't know them) so that they could survive and live their dreams.
viv (female, 14)
I fear that I aim too high and that if I don't achieve what i aim, I'll crash lower than i would ever have thought that i could have gone.
i fear other people dying more than my own death because i fear the pain that will cause me. But I also fear that if I die too early, i will never get the chance to love and be loved and achieve my dreams.
But, I can't be too scared of death I guess, because I would rather sacrifice my life for saving someone (even if I didn't know them) so that they could survive and live their dreams.
viv (female, 14)
Sunday, September 28, 2008
I fear never feeling again the way I felt when I was with you. I fear it was all my imagination and what I am living now is real. I fear that you think it was a mistake and you don't feel it was a beautiful as I do.
I fear being alone, knowing that I still love you and always have - but realising you don't want me, and never really did.
I fear, that those 6weeks were a lie...and that I never really experienced real love.
I fear I have lost my soul mate.
I fear being alone, knowing that I still love you and always have - but realising you don't want me, and never really did.
I fear, that those 6weeks were a lie...and that I never really experienced real love.
I fear I have lost my soul mate.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
I fear loving someone intensely and losing them. I fear never loving someone enough, but being with them anyway just to avoid being alone. I fear wasting my life away because there's nothing inside to keep me going. I fear finding out there really isn't any point. I fear ugliness. I fear pain. I fear my limits. I fear knowing that each month my suicide plans get more detailed. I fear my cowardice and knowing I'm only alive by default. I fear finding out I'm stupid. I fear everyone hating me. I fear losing limbs. I fear life. I fear nothingness. I fear living forever. I fear awareness. I fear my sins catching up with me. I fear I really am a waste of time - I have looked at it rationally and in relation to other people, and some people simply have more worth. I fear this is not warped thinking but simply true. I fear that morals and goodness are convenient social constructs brought on by evolutionary necessity. I fear growing old. I fear my continual desire to walk into walls. I fear never knowing till it's too late. I fear "good enough" because it never is.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Monday, September 8, 2008
I'm severely afraid of death, both my own and other people's. Every little weird thing my body does is clearly a symptom of a deadly, incurable disease and sends me running to the doctor. I think about how every single thing I do affects my health, and I do the same with everyone else. When I see someone I care about doing something unhealthy, I immediately start thinking of the years they are taking off their lives. I used to cry every time my boyfriend lit up a cigarette, until he finally quit!But more than I am afraid of death, I'm afraid that I'm so afraid of death, that I've forgotten how to live.
I fear I will never love anyone enough and if I do, they won't love me back.I fear death because I don't want to leave my family but I am more scared that my family will die and leave me.Sometimes I fear myself because I feel so empty and I don't know why and I wonder if I can ever make the feeling go away.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Saturday, July 19, 2008
I fear that I will be alone my whole life. Even with a boyfriend and lots of other friends of both genders, sometimes I just feel so empty and disconnected. I'm afraid that someday that feeling might not go away.
Yet at the same time I fear other people. I fear opening up only to be cut by malicious words or careless actions. I fear establishing bonds that might be broken
Yet at the same time I fear other people. I fear opening up only to be cut by malicious words or careless actions. I fear establishing bonds that might be broken
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Thursday, July 10, 2008
I'm afraid of pissing my son off if I point out one of his flaws that is interfering with his marital relationship. But if his intimidating communication style continues unchecked, I'm afraid he'll bully his way to a divorce, and he and his beautiful wife and children will suffer horribly. Then I'll wish I'd have said something despite feared consequences.
I'm afraid that I'm never going to escape this life-sucking career... that the unfair time demands of the thankless, joyless, mundane work will prevent me from moving on to the "next" opportunity... and I'll be stuck in this gossip-festering, back-biting, power-struggling, deceit-breeding corporate petrie dish. At the same time, at my age, I'm afraid if I lost this job, that I may not actually find a "next opportunity" in time to keep me from slipping into homelessness.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Friday, June 13, 2008
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Monday, June 9, 2008
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Monday, June 2, 2008
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Friday, May 30, 2008
Thursday, May 29, 2008
I fear the day my teenage daughter leaves for college/university.
I have raised her alone since birth and my entire life revolves around her. Every single thing I do is for her. Every moment I make is because of her.
My entire life revolves around her and she IS my life - the blood that runs through my veins and the air that I breathe.
She's growing up. She will eventually leave. I won't know what to do with myself after that.
I am scared to death.
I have raised her alone since birth and my entire life revolves around her. Every single thing I do is for her. Every moment I make is because of her.
My entire life revolves around her and she IS my life - the blood that runs through my veins and the air that I breathe.
She's growing up. She will eventually leave. I won't know what to do with myself after that.
I am scared to death.
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